comfort food.

i didn't know what else to do today. so i made pasta. olive oil and shallots and three cloves of garlic. whole, peeled tomatoes, a yellow pepper, three jalapenos and half a red onion. some salt, pepper , cayenne and red pepper flakes. chicken and more olive oil. a bit of half and half. some sour cream and tomato paste. topped with parano cheese and cilantro. served with a nice savignon blanc and a smile. a smile that i was sort of forcing today on this day when i really didn't know what else to do.

see, these weeks - they're long. and days seem like two or more. and mornings come sooner than i'm ready for them. and then evenings don't come soon enough.

i'm just so ready for a dawn. a new begining. a fresh start. a job with a paycheck and a desk. and maybe even a window to look out of. a place for my books and the picture of B and I parasailing in florida on New Year's day. a spot for my plant and for the AP Style Guide I've had since college. And Strunk and White need somewhere to go, too. now, they're just inhabiting a box that was hastily packed at a moment's notice. the same box with postcards and photos and buttons and pencils and notebooks full of ideas.