but i've also let you share in my joy.
it may seem like if you compare my joy and my dispair on a scale, the dispair would outweigh joy by like a million.
this is becuase i've had a hard few years.
and by "few" i mean 11-ish.
but things are finally looking up.
good things are happening to me. and for me. and around me.
and for once, i don't feel like i have to write an angsty poem in order to cope with my day.
for once, i can just sit and be.
and this, my friends, is a victory worth celebrating.
so, i'm celebrating. i'm celebrating the fact that right now, i spend three days a week at an amazing agency and am inspired by the most talented people while i'm there. i'm celebrating that i've been feeling good - really good - for about a year. no chronic pain. no constant trips to the doctor. i've been feeling healed. i'm celebrating that i finally am truly over missing gus. i don't think about him. i don't cry over him. i love kolby. to pieces. and, i'm celebrating that i'm finally settling down - again. with the man of my dreams. with my best friend. with the only person i can imagine sharing my crazy life with.
so, i'm celebrating tonight.
and i hope, that wherever you are, and whatever you're feeling, you can find something to celebrate, too.