on my twentieth day of unemployment, i woke up and went to church. then i went to the grocery store to buy stuff to make chicken tortilla soup - to eat for lunch and dinner the entire week. made it. went to the gym. read. worked on my website. watched marley and me. cried my eyes out (seriously.) hugged kolby for an extra long time. wondered "why me?" a lot. felt angry. sad. depressed. relieved. exhausted. motivated and completely blank. noticed white crap covering my left tonsil. checked facebook. twittered. ate some chocolate. went to bed.