...okay not sure how to breathe right now.
it means that i have IC in my bladder. i also have this muscle problem. the doctor said that 90 percent of my problem is muscle related. and that if i just keep going to physical therapy and taking my medication, i could possibly beat this thing. but the medication isn't easy to take.
one, that acts like a coating for the bladder, is expensive. and it causes hair loss. another, is a muscle relaxer and it causes your metabolism to slow down. and the other is a very low-dose medication to help with the pain and it causes weight gain, too.
i'm not quiet about the fact that in high school, i struggled with anorexia. the last thing i need is to be on a medication that causes weight gain.
on top of all of this, i still need to try to stick to this terribly, boring diet. because 75 percent of IC patients' symptoms are made worse based on the food they consume.
there is a chance i could beat this. that my bladder wall could end up looking normal again. that i could stop having the pain and the discomfort and the constant, nagging anxiety that it's going to start hurting again. but it's not guaranteed. and right now, that scares the hell out of me.