fingerprints.

i don't know the right way to say this. or how to explain the timing of god's hands. all i know is that on monday, i was struck by a lightening bolt idea. something i had to do. a chapter that closed long ago that i needed to open. to offer forgiveness. and grace. and love. because the love that used to be there - well, it never went away.

but i was too scared.

and then today. that chapter, the one that closed...contacted me. it was as if god was showing me that the thought i thought on monday was from him.

if only i had trusted it then.

but it seems i get a second chance. it's like god figured if i wasn't going to do it the first way, he'd get it done anyway.

so to her, i say, thank you. thank you for contacting me. for your words. for your heart. know that i have never found another to replace you. i have lots of other friends, but none as dear. and mostly, i just want to give you a big hug. so, you can look forward to that.