they pay to kiss your feet

since there's no one else around, we let our hair grow long and forget all we used to know. then our skin gets thicker from living out in the snow.

Monday, June 26, 2006

closer

the atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how
the clouds above opened up and let it out.
i was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere when the water filled every hole.
and thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
making islands where no island should go.
oh no.
those people were overjoyed;
they took to their boats.
i thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forevermore.
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before
oh no.
i need you so much closer

-deathcab for cutie

when too much seems like too much and too little seems like not enough, how do you know. where is the instruction manual. where is the person who can tell me what to do. exactly. with confidence. why won't God appear to me and sit down and let me ask him things. like why i've gone through so much in my life and what the purpose is. why won't he speak to me in audible words and phrases and with emphasis. why can't he be easier to figure out. why can't i be easier to figure out.

1 Comments:

  • At 2:05 PM, Blogger hippiemama said…

    Hi Jessi-
    Jess' mom here. You sure got a big fat boot on your foot! (like you didn't already know)

    Anyway, the trick to life, which I just reecently learned, is to just LET IT HAPPEN. It's a hard thing to do, esp when you're in a place that you don't want to be, but if you trust in yourself (you might say trust in God, that's more your thing) , you will be where you need to be. That may not necessarily be where you want to be, but it is the lesson you need to go where you want to go.

    It's very hard to just let life flow where it's supposed to go, and try not to control it too much, but if you just keep trusting, you will be surprised how things go.

    Hope your foot heals soon.

     

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