the perfect space.
we saw the avett brothers this weekend. for the second time. a lot of their music deals with the transition you go through in your late 20s and early 30s when you start to realize you are moving into adulthood. real adulthood.
like the age your parents were when you were already 8.
you could say i'm going through this transition. now.
see, lately, i've been preoccupied with thoughts about getting older and what that means. what defines me. what difference am i making. if i don't have kids, what legacy am i leaving. do i matter in the grand scheme of schemes. am i living each day to its fullest - not knowing how many i have left.
am i spending the hours of my day in ways that are pleasing to god and also to my soul. am i using my gifts and talents to bring positive change. or to at least impact one person in a way that shows them that light and love and life and god exist.
or am i just too consumed with realizing i'm getting old that i'm sort of stuck in this frozen in-between.
"the perfect space" by the avett brothers
I wanna have friends that I can trust,
that love me for the man I've become not the man I was.
I wanna have friends that will let me be
all alone when being alone is all that I need.
I wanna fit in to the perfect space,
feel natural and safe in a volatile place.
And I wanna grow old without the pain,
give my body back to the earth and not complain.
Will you understand when I am too old of a man?
And will you forget when we have paid our debt
who did we borrow from? Who did we borrow from?
Okay part two now clear the house.
The party's over take the shouting and the people,
get out!
I have some business and a promise that I have to hold to.
I do not care what you assume or what the people told you.
Will you understand, when I am too old of a man?
Will you forget when we have paid our debts,
who did we borrow from? Who did borrow from?
I wanna have pride like my mother has,
And not like the kind in the bible that turns you bad.
And I wanna have friends that I can trust,
that love me for the man I've become and not the man that I was.
like the age your parents were when you were already 8.
you could say i'm going through this transition. now.
see, lately, i've been preoccupied with thoughts about getting older and what that means. what defines me. what difference am i making. if i don't have kids, what legacy am i leaving. do i matter in the grand scheme of schemes. am i living each day to its fullest - not knowing how many i have left.
am i spending the hours of my day in ways that are pleasing to god and also to my soul. am i using my gifts and talents to bring positive change. or to at least impact one person in a way that shows them that light and love and life and god exist.
or am i just too consumed with realizing i'm getting old that i'm sort of stuck in this frozen in-between.
"the perfect space" by the avett brothers
I wanna have friends that I can trust,
that love me for the man I've become not the man I was.
I wanna have friends that will let me be
all alone when being alone is all that I need.
I wanna fit in to the perfect space,
feel natural and safe in a volatile place.
And I wanna grow old without the pain,
give my body back to the earth and not complain.
Will you understand when I am too old of a man?
And will you forget when we have paid our debt
who did we borrow from? Who did we borrow from?
Okay part two now clear the house.
The party's over take the shouting and the people,
get out!
I have some business and a promise that I have to hold to.
I do not care what you assume or what the people told you.
Will you understand, when I am too old of a man?
Will you forget when we have paid our debts,
who did we borrow from? Who did borrow from?
I wanna have pride like my mother has,
And not like the kind in the bible that turns you bad.
And I wanna have friends that I can trust,
that love me for the man I've become and not the man that I was.
posted by Pensive Girl @ 8:54 AM
1 Comments:
At 6:32 PM,
Ninjagaiden78 said…
I think about that alot too. I am 32 and am moving past the whole "Living in my 20's phase," but what does the next ten years of my life hold?
Good post.
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