the new year.

i'm watching the infomercial for "total pop" and i totally want it. did you know that you can't get this incredible two-CD collection in stores? it features mandy moore's "candy" and hanson. and if i was at all thinking i would regret the purchase, the commercial just told me not to miss out because, "total pop completes me." seriously? wow. what am i waiting for?

maybe you could buy it for me?

switching subjects, i've been reflecting a lot on 2008. and i'm sure i'll blog about that later.because it was a year of change. i made mistakes. some huge ones. but i also grew. a lot. and i learned who i am - at my very core. i learned what it means to really love. to grow. to change. to work on something with reckless abandon and to learn, again, to love God. i grew to trust the few that i could and to grow with them in fruitful relationship. i am abundantly blessed.

so tonight, i reflect. there was a time when these deathcab lyrics made sense. but not this year. this year, i reflect on travels and growth and meaning. this year, i've lived.


So this is the new year.
And i don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions

So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogs bleed into one

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

There'd be no distance that could hold us back

So this is the new year

thank God for change and for second chances. thank God for life and for time and continuance and grace. thank God for a year when i have resolutions and purpose and plans and goals and when i didn't have to pretend, at the drop of the ball, to be happy and so full of love.