so behind the times.

while listening to "you don't know me" on ben folds' myspace page for the 10th time today, i just realized that there is now the capability to scroll through his actual albums and change the playlist. how great. how needed. how yesterday, right?

speaking of being behind, every one i know (okay that's an exaggeration but still) like a million people got either engaged or married in the last three months. really. a million.

and here i am, going backwards. sort of.

i've been there. not anymore. i owned a house. now i rent. backwards. see?

and it's weird, you know? my friend B is busy planning her wedding. picking the dress. the photographer. the cake. and she just got engaged on christmas. and then a few people i used to be friends with, who weren't even engaged seven months ago, tied the knot over the holiday. see, people are excitedly approaching their happily ever after. in droves.

and i. well, i got fewer christmas cards in the mail this year than i ever have. i mean, a few years ago, when i lived in the yellow house...the one where gus lives...i got 50 cards. 50.

this year, i got six. and two of them were from work vendors.

it's like unless you are all tied up in happily ever after after after, people just don't think about you as a christmas card recipient. and when you start moving backwards in life, people sort of forget about you in a lot of instances. so you have to learn to fend for yourself. make your own life. become well-rounded. and anyway, it's not that i'm not experiencing happily ever. because i am. i guess i'll just have to wait for my after. and that's okay. but i don't think this in-between should disqualify me from christmas card lists.

but maybe that's just my opinion.