Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
friday: yellow mucus coughing up. sore throat. runny nose.
saturday: more of the same:
monday: same plus 100.5 fever
tuesday: can't feel my face, exhausted
when will the z pac start working?
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
flowers, now, mean a little more. they mean they weren't gotten at a discount from dad. they weren't a way to help dad out. they weren't chosen from his shop to help keep his favor.
see, now that they're no longer part of the fabric of my life, they are more beautiful than i ever remember them being.
so thanks, bop, for the flowers. and for so much more.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Monday, February 09, 2009
Loves (the list)
fried chicken gizzards
iced coffee from eljay's
discovering new music
coffee by B
tears when they're cleansing
sharpie fine point permanent markers
my bible study
being a good steward of the environment
dive bars that aren't smoky
the smoking ban
driving b's fast car
deep tissue massages
adventures that don't involve heights
mushu chicken from red dragon
decorating for christmas
watching shows about aliens and bigfoot
Sunday, February 08, 2009
i also thought that stevie wonder's "superstition" was called "superstitious" until today.
also, why does katie perry always have to arrive in a banana. her act is getting old.
Friday, February 06, 2009
maybe they will all go away in maui.
i'm laughing at the thought of that.
because that's not how life works.
but seriously, i'm growing envious of people who can just push things away. down deep somewhere inside themselves where they put it in a locked safe and forget the combination.
i mean, i know how incredibly stupid that is in the sense that those people will never learn certain lessons and grow in ways that they may need to grow.
but wow, my heart would feel much lighter. if i was one of those people with a combination they've forgotten. and a mind that doesn't dwell or create stories or think too much about something that should be insignificant.
and honestly right now, while i'm typing this. "i became awake" by great lake swimmers started playing. and the lyrics remind me that i'm awake now. and being awake is the very reason my mind is like it is. i'm aware i guess.
but being aware is, sometimes, such a burden.
I became awake.
From a very dark place - a patchwork of fear of poorly conceived ideas.
With a blister of water, the mark of working hands,
ready to catch or cut.
The senses aligned, the animal urgency and voices picked up
flowing over the static,
I became awake.
Fingers are open.
Eyes they are open -
the firing of images,
an orchestra of scribbles.
The guts of an engine,
the veins of a leaf,
light onto paper - exposed.
A filament in a bulb,
up above or in the ground.
Together we are magic,
together we are dreaming,
together we reach endlessly,
The center of a seed - so full of possibilities.
I became awake.
I thought I was sleeping,
but I was only forming a structure with no ceiling,
With words like a runway - a cloud of a person drifting away.
I was heavy, but now I am light.
I was heavy, but now I am light
Thursday, February 05, 2009
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Tuesday, February 03, 2009
want vs. need
a family-size house with a dining room large enough for dinner parties.
a screened-in porch perfect for sipping wine or iced tea on 60 to 80 degree days.
a front porch for people watching.
another pair of Sevens.
someone to clip kolby's nails on a weekly basis.
to be walking distance from the beach, the big city, the mountains and a whole foods.
a house to call home forever.
a case for my macbook.
a handmade, really cute, functional wallet.
a new bike.
an adult-sized swing set.
better pots and pans.
to learn to knit.
a comfortable pair of 4-inch pointy heels.
to be anchored.
Monday, February 02, 2009
and today, i had to be at work from an 8 a.m. meeting. which means i got here at 7:45. which means i woke up at 6 a.m. which means i really just stopped 'not sleeping' at 6 a.m. you know, cause i'd been awake all night.
and now it's 3 p.m. and i'm exhausted. absolutely. bleary-eyed.